The First Entry?

This blog has existed for about 6 months now and I have absolutely nothing to show for it. I have two draft posts sitting in the waiting room, but nothing ready for publishing. There are several reasons for reneging on my o-blog-ations (snark snark), some of which are forgivable and others which I'll attempt to justify.

Indolence, distractions, sleeping, inebriation, and stonedness - forgive me.

Lack of confidence in my writing, coupled with an inability to channel my thoughts into keyboard - I can explain.

When I started my blog, it began as another capricious interest on which I could fixate my attention until something newer, and equally ephemeral, came around to steal it away. In July (T-6 months) my attention was diverted to living in China. In September (T-4 months) it was hijacked by school. In subsequent months (T-3 months until the present: T) it was consumed with a combination of school and the aforementioned laundry list of forgivable lapses.

It became so easy to put-off because I had such lofty expectations for my first post. I tried crafting an elaborate, postmodern entry that would be self-conscious of its existence as a first blog post. I know - extremely lofty and unnecessarily presumptuous. The more I wrote, the more convoluted and pretentious it became. Eventually it evolved into a complex syllogism, exploring blogging's implications on confession and personal affirmation. Clearly I was getting entangled in the trappings of my own ego, having made little headway towards the completion of my first entry. So I decided to keep it on the back-burner (at time T=January, 6 months later) and write something (anything!) I could use to introduce my blog.

So yeah, that was it. And here's the rest:

Kinda underwhelming, considering I built this up for 6 months to myself. (and to Brett, for whom I hope this satiates 6 months of anticipation) Definitely not the earth-shattering (or even mountain-moving) first entry I fantasized about posting, but an important and quite necessary step to starting a blog. Not to mention, an equally important avowal myself.

If, and when, I terminate this blog in the very-distant future, I'll post the phantom first-entry as my last one, with some minor and major modifications. It probably won't live up to the pseudo-hype I built for it in my actual first post (this one), but it will likely provide the sentimental closure I'll seek. Kinda kitschy and cliche, but eh, forgive me.